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Marc by Marc Jacob purse classic Q satchel $348

makeup brush set $60 sephora

Dior eyeshadow in sunset cafe $56

philosophy skincare set $78

Dior Shine perfume $85

almost cried at work today

I work at a school and I barely see any Asian, not alone Cambodian teacher. so this year I worked with a Cambodian teacher and he really inspired me. its interesting that he taught a lot of cultural ethnic issues even though he's an english teacher. I've never seen that before because most of my teachers were white. so anyway, this month the students were learning about Khmer Rouge and the aftermath. first it didnt affect me because honestly I knew very little about the khmer Rouge. but since now Im also doing a research paper for my history class about the Khmer Rouge, it kinda hit me.
Its a shame that I knew very little about khmer rouge. My parents didnt like to talk about it. They just said thank god they're still alive. but then again my parents were kids during the Khmer rouge era. I grew up in the refugee camp, site 2. I thought life was great over there, but what did I know? I was only a child. I get to run free inside the camp not knowing that there's danger all around me. that's the reason why we were stuck there in the first place.
but after I watched a documentary video today about a girl's family I almost cried because I cant believe how ignorant I was about the situation. I understand how every khmer suffered a great loss, but I never did comprehend how significant it is. I guess it finally hit me today. I dont know why, but maybe seeing pictures of the camp that I used to live in really open my eyes how much we suffered as Khmer.
while watching the video, my eyes got so watery that the teacher told me to sit down and read a book instead. I was ashame, seriously. I know my parents never told me anything because they dont want me to think too much. I think all the time. depression is like my long term disease or something so my parents would do whatever to make me happy. but I feel like I didnt care how much my parents suffer. I didnt care that I now have less relatives. I hope I can finish my papers without being too emotional

americana!

I just discovered a new Mall in the LA area recently. Im not really surprised that the mall itself is very nice. There is an expensive section, which is too far for my reach. and a "normal" section for us regular folks. I have to say, the place is quite a view. Im mean, there is no large beautiful landscape or anything, but the architecture and the ambient is so California, not the beachy california, but a different kind of california. I love going new places =D

June 8, 2009

just after I got off work that day, I received a call from the staff of Hoover Middle School telling me that my brother got into an accident. The lady seemed to be in more of a panic than I was. I was shocked and wondering what kind of accident, it turned out, and as I expected, he injured himelf by break dancing. I was soooo worried. They said he broke his arm; compound fracture. I dont even know what compound fracture means. So, I wen to the hospital and waited for him at the ER. Goodness gracious, it took 12 hours to finish everything. My brother was fine, he did broke two bones, unable to use his arm for awhile but he was fine. He had to stay at the hospital for 2 days though and missed the last week of school. it sucked, but at least he was able to attend his 8th grade graduation. As of right now, hes still somewhat handicap cause hes not suppose to pick anything up heavy. Im glad though, thank god. I was able to smile again this week, finally!

this is a pic of us; my family <3

hiking

not much to say. the pictures say it all.

kl meet

6/02/09......

what an interesting day. june 2nd was also my dad's bday but unfortunately I didnt do anything for him, not even a small present. oh well, I owe him. I'll take him out to dinner and get him his gift later. this woman is dead broke. every year she took them( my parents) to somewhere nice but not this year, i need a rest; because seriously, I feel like I work too hard to keep them happy. Im just not the selfish kind who only take pleasure in my own happiness.

soooo kl meet was also on the same night. I'd never thought I meet so many KL members at once. As it turned out, the meet went quite well. Everything was so chilled and relaxing, though I was a bit sleepy for some odd reason. I usually go to bed around 12 or so on my regular nights. well anyway, we ate at Niko Niko sushi bar. I never fancy sushi in the beginning, maybe once in a blue moon, but certainly not last night. Ny and I share a plate but somehow I couldnt manage to finish it either. the most awesome thing about that place was probably tempura ice cream! goodness gracious how i love tempura ice cream =D. Overall it was one hell of a night. I was extremely tired but I laugh the whole time cause the guys were so funny! there were only two girls which is me and Leah. to cut this short we continue our night at Dave & buster's. didnt do much there, just talk and drink. I didnt drink though cause I had to work the next day. Alchohol was never my thing anyway, I am though definitely not a light weight. but anyway, so many KL meet this summer! but still looking for more hehe =)

nothing happaned much today. I did received an interesting telemarketing call today though. why so interesting? because it was in Khmer! the man asked us or resident to join them in a Cambodian Unity Festival or something like that. I was intrigued, I actually sat and listened the whole way through. It was some sort of high school talent search made for Cambodian community. They also mentioned that Stevie Wonder's son will be performing also. I forgot his name, but something Morris. 

so anyway, just wanna add another video. this guy happed to look so much like Ny!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JY4oHEOuLJ0

first time

for an unknowing reason I spontaneously decided to make a blogging account which no one know about.  I've been wanting to do this for awhile; just for a memory of my own as the years pass so I can have something to look back to. 

today.. May 27, 2009. I went to CSULB to turn in some financial aid info. I really need it, I cannot afford college on my own, let alone trying to make a living. Everything went quite well. I usually have the biggest attitude if everything doesnt go my way, but of course I'd try to make everything go as smoothly as possible.

other than that, bf and I had some email "argument". for what reason? because yesterday I asked him to give me some quarters so I can park at the meter at CSULB and he gave me a bunch of pennies and dime. it was my fault actually, I should've check what he gave me. that alone made us argue via email for quite a while. this guy, seriously, he would not admit that he's wrong in any case.  anything at all. Im mean, it is my responsibility to be prepared and all, but geesh, can a girl ask her guy for some help without any hassle? he told me to get real; its my responsibility